Lazy, hazy days of summer

Sweet Jeebus it's hot.

And hazy.

It's the kind of day where you walk outside and instantly slllooooooow down. The humidity pulls the very fluid out of your lungs and deposits it all over your body as sweat. You feel your brain slowing down too, and instantly turn stoopid.

And sadly, I think the heat is getting to my ovaries too, 'cause they seem to be responding like the rest of my body on this hot, hazy day. Just too danged slow.

Today is day four of stims, so I was up early this morning (5:45am) to head into the city for the day four check. I'm still on vacation today and tomorrow, so I wanted to beat the rush hour traffic. Hopped in the car and it wasn't too bad, but man, I know why I could never do that every day. Yeesh!

Anyway, got to the clinic in decent time, found street parking, and waited my turn.

Ultrasound is kinda wonky, but it's still early so I'm not too worried, in the grand scheme of things. Looks like they're still not sure if the 1.5 on the right is a cyst or a follicle but it hasn't grown at all in a few weeks so we're still thinking cyst. No other follies showing up at the minimum .9 stage. On the left, 1.3, 1.1, 0.9. I had a 1.4 cyst before but either it's gone now or has shrunken - but they don't question whether the 1.3 is cyst or follicle, so who knows.

So then it was the wait for blood work. Drove home, gassed up the car, got my new GO train pass, picked up some breakfast for Hubs (who's also off today and tomorrow). We did a bit of cleaning, then decided to get out and do something. We'd originally planned to go to a provincial park for the day to swim and have a picnic, but not in 44 degree heat. Just not going to happen!

Instead we headed over to the Ajax casino. We'd never been and I just kinda felt like it. I love me some slots.

I was down a bit early on, then found a machine I loved. And when I'd won $66.50 on one pull, I decided it was time to cash out, up $40 from what we'd had walking in. Woot!

As we were leaving I looked over at Hubs and said, 'hope we didn't use up all our luck here today - we still need it!', and we both just smiled.

After hitting up Los Cabos for lunch, I got my phone call and realized how sadly prophetic that statement would be.

My estrogen is only 356. It should be higher - much higher. In fact, this is the lowest estrogen level I've had on day four in all four cycles that I've been keeping track. Lower, sadly, than it was on the cycle we were cancelled. So I'm feeling very stressed out about how things are going to proceed from here - indeed IF they will continue to proceed at all from here.

Bah.

Ever been tempted to just up your dosage on your own? Yeah? I have, every single cycle. I've never done it, but man oh man, it will take everything in my being to only dial up 300IU tonight.

Here's hoping that things improve with Wednesday's next check in. Keep your fingers crossed for me, will ya?