It's over

So yeah, negative beta today. I waited forever to get my call and was flipping out. I knew what the result was, but needed to KNOW, ya know? Sigh.I had one meeting today - one - from 2:30 to 3:30. I usually get called well before 1 with a beta, and by 2pm I was still sitting there, at my desk, waiting for the stinking phone to ring.I was starving, my blood sugar was crashing, and I couldn't leave my desk in case I missed the...

From hope to this

The two week wait sucks. No matter how you slice it, two weeks is a long time. Especially when you've been used to getting your information on a daily basis - all of the sudden you get to transfer and you're cast adrift with no appointments, no phone calls, no nothing for two.whole.weeks.Well, unless you're me. Then you get your progesterone tested seven days post transfer, but still. Even a week's a long time.That first week...

Home sweet home

Both for me, and our adorable, in-fantastic-shape embies.That's right, as of about 10:20 this morning, three, count em three, embryos found their way home to my uterus where they belong.It was kind of bittersweet to have to do a day three transfer, but the relief of just having them back in the habitat they desire was immense. I don't think I would have been able to function waiting to see if they made it to day five, so I sucked...

Still hangin' on...

Got our call today and it seems our three embryos are thus far hanging on for dear life.At this point they're supposed to be 3-4 cells and that's exactly what two of them are. One is five cells or more - so a bit advanced. I'm thinking that's not necessarily a good thing or a bad thing, it's just a bit advanced. As long as it doesn't continue to grow at some weird rate, we should be okay.So now, instead of waiting for a day...

And then there were three

Seven eggs retrieved, seven eggs mature.And only three fertilized. Once again, I'm crushed.I've spent the entire day in disbelief, either bawling my face off or sleeping. I can't get enough sleep. I haven't even left the house today. I did manage to shower and have three real meals so no need to call out the interventionists just yet, but still. Not a good day.When the nurse called, I just couldn't believe the news. I went...

Lucky number 7?

Yes, egg retrieval was today. Fun.So where do we start? Got up at 5am, finally got yesterday's blog posted, and hit the road around 6. Managed to find street parking in front of the clinic, and made it up to the 18th floor in time for our 7am check in. Where we, of course, waited 20 minutes for anything to happen. Finally they called my name and the real fun began. Got into the gowns, put on my cute socks and in came the nurse...

Very superstitious

Writing's on the wall...Man I love that song.But it describes me to a t these days.As you likely well know, today (I would have published this yesterday but my computer was acting up) is retrieval. E2 went up to 5886 yesterday which is good. So we're on for 8am this morning.So now the rituals begin. I may have mentioned before that my...

Trigger happy

So here we are, day 12, after 8pm, and we're triggered.That's right, I took my last shot of the cycle, the holy grail of the stim cycle, less than two hours ago. It's all up to 10,000 units of hCG now. My E2 was only 3995 today but we decided to trigger anyway. Dr. H told me that 50% of eggs measuring greater than 1.5 will be mature, so he's hoping that judging by my follicles we'll have 8 or 9 mature eggs. So I'm holding on...

Another non-stellar day

Yep, here we are again with an E2 jump of only 700. Bringing us to a whopping 3300 on day 11 of stims. WTF?Seriously...what the fuck. I was sure it was going to make a good jump today. My follies keep growing at a good rate - I've now got 17 between 1.0 and 2.0 - and my lining went from .7 to 1.0. I really thought my lining jump was the key. It takes estrogen to help plump up that lining in the beginning, right? Surely my...