A 2015 update

So yeaaaah, it's been forever since I posted in here, mostly because we're done.  I've got a new blog now, one that touches on everything and anything that happens in my life, and if you're so inclined you can find an update on our situation and how life is now via this post: http://shanburbia.blogspot.ca/2015/05/life-after-infertility.html Thanks for checking ...

Oh solace, where art thou?

I haven't posted here in eight months. Why? We haven't been cycling. Not actively trying. Doing nothing. And so nothing's happened.We've had review appointments and discussions about what might be next. We've talked about whether it's time to stop altogether or whether we give it one more go. We've heard the doctor tell us that it's still a mystery why last time didn't work - why seven good eggs and 80 million great sperm...

The more things change...

...the more they stay the same.Negative beta today. Not really much more to say than that, is there. Not much of a surprise, as I'm sure you might have surmised from my last post. I knew it was coming, so the phone call was just the final nail in the coffin. Now I wait for them to call and set up a review appointment, and we figure out what, if anything, we can do going forward. This sucks. I was so hopeful that this was finally,...

This all seems so familiar...

So here we are, 12dpo, and nothing but negatives. Using FRER's and everything - not a hint of that elusive second pink line.I'm pretty much crushed. I had thrust so much hope into this cycle I'm practically crumbling under the weight of it all. I know that once Thursday's beta comes and the result is what I've heard time and time again it's going to be funk city, population me, for a good, long time.And just when I thought...

Ten days is a long time

I'd forgotten just how long ten days can be.When you're doing IVF, you can usually do a home test about a week after transfer. So things get broken up and while you're waiting just as long, you can trick yourself into believing otherwise.Not so with an IUI. It's still ten days after the procedure that you can pee on something with any degree of reliability. Oh sure, I could pee now and probably get a positive since it's been...

And now we wait

IUI number two is also on the books. Now, we just wait. Two weeks, and we'll know whether it all worked. Numbers seem to be doing what they're supposed to. E2 dropped a bit to 5,500 which is expected, LH is only 4 which would mean I've surged, and progesterone rose from 7 to 17 which is also a good indication of ovulation. All good.Today saw 20 million spermies at 98% motility injected to the left side of my uterus to join...

One down...

...60 million on the go!So yes, IUI number one is officially on the books. E2 was a lovely 5663 and my LH was 14. Can you believe that? And this was all pre-trigger, not that it impacts LH, but still. I was a happy girl this morning. Looking forward to seeing what tomorrow's numbers are, just for fun.Had a great night out last night with the gals. It was wonderful as always to see Janny and meet her hubby and we had a great...